The Leya Experience #10 | unappreciated wanderer

when your light doesn’t mirror the mainstream

image by Verawaty

While reading my blogs, I can’t deny the use of words like paradox, restlessness and choices. Those phenomena are so much intertwined in my existence that they have become a regular part of my decision making, while I doubt this is healthy. Experiencing emotions like that, they don’t add up to the feeling of freedom many of us try to pursue. At least I do.

Despite the doubts I do tend to choose a life of freedom and somehow I manage that quite well. The only way to establish this kind of freedom is by mentally kicking every obstacle to the achievement. That’s why I sometimes am too loud, or make inappropriate or unusual choices. 

What I do and how I live doesn’t mirror the life of the mainstream and I want to continue that way no matter what. I can’t say I want the standard life of marriage with husband and kids, it’s not and never was my goal in life. What I want is to add and give to society with my dance and writing. When that succeeds, that’s when I have a good day.