The Leya Experience #11 | the push through
the empty pages called adoption
In my previous post I mentioned the darkest time ever. To be honest, I’m quite scared in the dark. Not that I’m afraid at night in the streets, as long as I see lights around me. Complete darkness makes me feel like being locked up. When it comes to life, I’m someone who pushes through the hard times by taking on so much that it seems like I’ve gone through the bad days.
In reality, bad days always haunt you. Those days are meant for you to grow, to develop and take on challenges you normally wouldn’t choose to take on. Right now I’m in a situation I rather not acknowledge. Contrary to my past, I don’t escape into dancing, but I do tend to escape in other situations like work and looking for new assignments.
My dancing takes me to interesting events and I’m able to meet various people. Somehow guests are always curious about the dancer on stage and after one of my gigs I meet the owners of the empire responsible for the event. As always I do not engage too much with the guests, but I do talk and socialize with them. Of course there are events where wild things happen, but this isn’t such an event.
A few weeks later it turns out I’m right and I meet one of the guests at one of my other appointments for an assignment. This time I’m professional in a different way and the conversation leads to my adoption. Somehow I manage to get in contact with a group of adoptees who have taken on some research about the matter. They’re searching for someone who wants to go into the field and I’m very interested.
When I meet Sophie she explains to me that she and the other two are bound to office work due to personal circumstances and she’s indeed looking for someone who’s able to talk to people or do archive research at other organizations in The Netherlands. ‘What made you get into contact with me?’ She asks politely.
‘Well, I think it’s time and I would love to cooperate with a group, but function as a freelancer. It’s just time I figure it out, we figure out where we’re coming from and what happened. To find a way to fill the empty pages in our life they call adoption.’
Love and light,
Leya