The Leya Experience #2 | madness rabbit hole

when the world changes, transform into an invincible wildflower

An exciting day has arrived. We got to vote in the Netherlands, again. Since the year 2000 I have been allowed to vote in the Netherlands and it has been hectic ever since. Perhaps the voting was always a crazy event, but 2002 was extreme because of the attack on the politician Pim Fortuyn. Everyone who was 18 years old or older, were allowed to vote and then that happened. The whole country went upside down. Something like that never happened and the elections were around the corner. Now it’s 2023 and new incidents took place with the leader of Forum van Democratie Thierry Baudet. I’m not sure the political climate is more restless than in 2002, but I can say it's madness again.

Somehow I do feel the change that is coming and I am not sure the change is good. The reason I’m not optimistic is that there hasn’t been a year since the change of politics has been convenient for our country at all. I feel like it doesn’t matter who you’re voting for, because the world will keep turning its own way anyway. But I did vote, even though I don’t feel confident about the outcome. In fact, I’m a bit sad. Like the change that is going to come, will not be a good change. Society will become more trapped in a mysterious rabbit hole, more than ever and they’re not a lot of people who recognize the restlessness in the world.

Ever since the start of the war in the Middle-East I've been feeling restless, nervous and even kind of sick. Is this the point of getting older, becoming an adult? Is this the part where we seem to understand what is going on? That wars will never be over. That wars mean the end of freedom and the beginning of changes of humanity around the world. Just like post-9/11. Before 2001 we felt like we were free, one way or another. After 9/11 more became supervised, for our own safety. When you look back, yes, the world changed after Y2K. And now it’s 2023, post-COVID and new wars have emerged. After 9/11, it was premier Balkenende after premier Kok. Now, more than two years after Covid, we will have a new Dutch PM again. 

I was never optimistic. I never lived in a fantasy land, despite my shiny dance outfits. When the music ended, I was always aware of the real world. Maybe even too much. Dancing and music are my only escapes from my seriousness to make my brain stop thinking for a while. It’s never everlasting. Perhaps I should make it everlasting. I’m so done with society. So done with everything that’s getting worse. Done with the world that isn’t mine. It’s time to get serious about my own rabbit hole. Creating my own wonderland like Alice. Only Leya’s. It’s weird I’ve never acknowledged that part of me. Always holding on to the real world of obligations without experiencing the joy of my dance, writings and music. 

Despite the chaos of politics the last two decades, I was able to maintain my life as it is. I live in a great apartment in the city and I manage to earn my money with more freedom than most people. So let’s get more conscious about my blessings, let’s focus and create a life with my greatest passions and gifts. The accomplishments are real, let’s protect my most precious rabbit hole to live in a time when the world seems to capture every part of freedom we have. All we can do is transform into an invincible wildflower that’s immune to time, change and chaos.

love & kisses,

Leya

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